Carissa Rueanne Demasi I wish my one voice was enough to stand up against bullying. I know what it’s like to be bullied really badly and I can tell you from my experience, it leaves deep emotional scars forever and messes you up. It makes you feel like you’re worthless no matter what you do in life. It makes your self esteem lower than low. It’s NOT something to joke around with. Just my two cents from someone who experienced it.

February 20th at 9:50 PM

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Darien Taylor i did to and it sucks

Carissa Rueanne Demasi It really does.

 Darien Taylor i was called words mostly used on girls to

Carissa Rueanne Demasi I was called awful names and pretty much hated by everybody in middle school.

Darien Taylor me to i was called the one b word mostly used on girls in middle school

Carissa Rueanne Demasi I was called worse than that.

 


Darien Taylor i didnt think there was any word worse than the b word

Carissa Rueanne Demasi There are. And it wasnt even name calling. People found entertainment in making me cry. They would laugh at my tears. I was name-called, I had spitballs thrown in my hair, I had guys ask me out as a joke, I was almost beat up, anything they could do to make me cry and laugh about it. People are cruel.

Darien Taylor jerks

Carissa Rueanne Demasi People are jerks. Welcome to this world.

Darien Taylor i know what u mean devan was one of the few nice people i ever met

Darien Taylor well all ur friends really

Carissa Rueanne Demasi Devan is hella sweet, I love her.

Darien Taylor yeah to everyone but me js

Carissa Rueanne Demasi She wasn’t mean to you, she just didn’t know who you were and you kinda freaked her out a little bit.

Darien Taylor exactly but nicole on the other hand was mean and now i cant talk to her

Carissa Rueanne Demasi I don’t why Nicole was like that.

Darien Taylor u know im just mad she blocked me right

Carissa Rueanne Demasi Yeah i know, but idk why she blocked you

Darien Taylor because i was annoying

Carissa Rueanne Demasi oh.

Darien Taylor idk if thats the truth but i was just being friendly asking questions etc

Carissa Rueanne Demasi Maybe she thought you were asking too many personal questions.

Darien Taylor but she wont unblock me so idk now

Carissa Rueanne Demasi Just don’t worry about it

Darien Taylor why not

 Carissa Rueanne Demasi Because she blocked you a long time ago and won’t unblock you so there’s really nothing you can do about it.

Darien Taylor except me mean to her

Carissa Rueanne Demasi Don’t be mean to her, that’s not right either.

Darien Taylor she goes to harvard how can i be mean to a smart person

Darien Taylor i was jk anyways rissa

Carissa Rueanne Demasi Okay.

Darien Taylor its my fault rissa and i live up to it

Carissa Rueanne Demasi Okay good

Darien Taylor mistake that i cant apogise for either

Carissa Rueanne Demasi You could still apologize if you wanted to.

Darien Taylor i would have to make a 2nd account though

Carissa Rueanne Demasi Then do that.

 


Darien Taylor i dont want to right now though

Remember When? (A poem about growing up)

Remember when boys had cooties?

Remember when your parents arranged your playdates?

Remember when the biggest fight you ever had with your best friend was over who gets the last Popsicle?

Remember when “we should hang out” was “wanna come over and play?” and you actually followed through?

Remember when you gave your childhood best friend a friendship ring and promised to be “best friends forever?”

Remember those countless Friday nights when you would go out with your friends and party all night long? They were your “crew”, your “buddies”, and you hoped you would all be best friends forever.

Remember when your best friends only lived a block away?

Remember when goodbyes only lasted 12 hours?

Remember when “getting punished” meant going to your room or going to bed early?

Remember when you relied on a security blanket to keep you warm and secure?

Remember when “stupid” was such a bad word?

Remember when the worst pain you ever felt was a skinned knee?

Remember when peer pressure was to go down the huge slide on the playground or the diving board at the pool ?

Remember when getting high was swinging on the swings at the park?

Remember puppy love, when you thought you were “in love” with your first crush?

Remember when heartbreak was spilling your milk?

Now boys are everything and more to us

Now we are in charge of our own social life

Now the biggest fight you’ll ever have with your best friend was over the fact that she slept with your boyfriend

Now “we should hang out” usually isn’t followed through

Now that friendship ring can be be easily regarded and thrown away as “junk” when cleaning out their room and that “best friend” you gave it to you was easily replaced

Your “crew” is no longer your crew. They become your old childhood friends. You have a new “crew”, but your old “crew”always holds a special place in your heart and you would give anything to spend one night with them reliving the great times you  used to have

Your old childhood best friends are growing up and moving away, renting apartments with their boyfriends/girlfriends, sometimes thousands of miles away

Now goodbyes last years

Now “getting punished” means “getting grounded” for weeks at a time, usually bound to your room with no computer, phone, friends, or anything

Now we rely on our boyfriends to keep us warm and secure

Now nothing is considered a bad word to us because we hear deragatory, prejudice words just walking down the school hallway and in the music we listen to

A skinned knee is NOTHING compared to a real broken heart

Now peer pressure is the notion that getting drunk and high is cool

Now getting high means smoking and popping pills

Now “real love” is slow suicide

Now “heartbreak” is getting cheated on or dumped by someone you thought you could always trust

Sometimes I wonder why I was ever so excited to grow up

I would go back to the good ol’ days in a heartbeat

Cancer Awareness Poem (Cancer patients and loved ones: STAY STRONG!)

by Carissa Rueanne Demasi on Wednesday, April 13, 2011 at 8:46pm

It’s the disease that everyone fears

And is the cause for all our tears

But we can fight it

We can’t let it beat us

For all those families out there

Stay strong

I give you all my best wishes

Courage, Strength, Luck, Hope

We believe in you

We know you can fight this

Stay strong

Don’t give up

We love you

And we are rooting for you

Like Fire On Ice

I follow you around

I have to see where you’re going

Because you melt my heart like fire on ice

And you’ll never know :)

I see you smile at me

I go weak in the knees

And I start to sweat

Because you melt my heart like fire on ice

and you’ll never know :)

We’re probably completely different

Like fire and ice

Like chocolate and vanilla

You may have a girlfriend

But I can’t give up on you just yet

Because you melt my heart like fire on ice

and you’ll never know :)

Her Tears Tell A Story

She lays in bed

and hugs her pillow to her chest

As she looks out her window

and beyond the life she has left

She cries

She’s a mess

She thinks of the past

Everything she has left behind

Her tears tell a story

One that is unwritten from the world

But a novel in her soul

She dosen’t want to be up all night crying

She wants to be happy

But when she remembers what she lost and what is gone

The tears fall

Her tears tell a story

One that is unwritten from the world

But a novel in her soul

The room she sleeps in

Is starting to feel like a jail cell

Her pillow is too wet from her tears to sleep on

The walls feel like they’re closing in on her

And no matter what shes never comfortable

Her tears tell a story

One that is unwritten from the world

But a novel in her soul

She feels so alone

Even in a  room full of people

Nobody can hear her screams

Shes riding this roller coaster

All by herself

In order to see the rainbow you have to go through the storm

She tells herself the rainbow is coming

But she’s been searching for it for months

The storm is flooding the rainbow away

Her tears tell a story

One that is unwritten from the world

But a novel in her soul

Stupid Cupid

Cupid Cupid

The god of love

Do you know what you’re doing?

When you shoot that arrow?

I see him

I want him

Stupid Cupid you shot your arrow and let it fly

It hit her and I’ll never know why

Why must you have such terrible aim

I saw him, I wanted him

But now he sees her

And he wants her

Stupid Cupid you shot your arrow and let it fly

It hit her and I’ll never know why

They huddle together from the cold

Their breath forming in the cold humid air

That girl should be me

But it’s not

All because of Stupid Cupid

You shot your arrow and let it fly

It hit her and I’ll never know why

Take Me Away From This Place

 She lives in a small town

And nothing ever changes

Every day is the same

No fortune, no fame

The walls start to feel like they’re closing in on her

The streets feel like old friends

She sits in her room and looks out her window

Thinking

“Take me away from this place”

She feels like everyone’s against her

Liars, cheaters, fake friends

They all surround her and make her claustrophobic

While she thinks

“Take me away from this place”

Everyone knows everyone

It’s a speck of dust on the entire United States

She just looks all around her

and thinks

“Take me away from this place”

Broken Wings

I’m taking a walk

Admiring the beauty around me

Singing songs all off key

The trees are lush and green

Everything that is never seen

Is all around me

Suddenly I see

On the ground in front of me

A bird

A bird with broken wings

I pick the little birdie up

And pet it gently

I bet it could fly away

Over the trees

Over the hills

If only it didn’t have broken wings

I know exactly how this little bird feels

My heart had wings too

But they broke

My heart could fly away too

To a happy place

If only it didn’t have broken wings

This bird and me

We both have a secret

So I take it home with me

I lay in bed holding the baby bird in my arms

And stare at its broken wings

I know it dreams everyday of flying away to a happy place

If only he didn’t have broken wings

If I could nurse this baby bird

Nurse it

It would make me so happy

And he will be a happy pappy

So it can fly way to a better place

I can’t save myself, can’t nurse myself

So the next best thing is to nurse this baby bird

And its broken wings back to life

But it’s time to face reality

I can’t nurse this baby bird any more than I can nurse myself

So we can both lay here and dream of flying away to a happy place

If only we didn’t have broken wings

Black Heart

He told her he loved her

She believed him

But he turns around and hurts her

Tells her she’s a slut and no one will ever like her

Makes her cry

As she lays in bed sobbing

His black heart beats on and on

He’s full of evil

Acting like he loves her

Then telling her he dosen’t care about her

While she suffers in silent agony

His black heart beats on and on

I’m Sorry (All about fighting with friends)

Best friends forever

Or so we said

Is that a promise

Or did we let it all go to our head

I’m sorry

I never should have done that

I hope you’ll forgive me

It would fill me with glee

We both said things we didnt mean

We both acted on our anger

Our friendship means too much to me

To let one fight end it

I’m sorry

I never should have done that

I hope you’ll forgive me

It would fill me with glee

The phone went dead

Your face went away

I said something and got you all fed

I’m sorry

I never should have done that

I hope you’ll forgive me

It would fill me with glee

I wish we never got into this

Because I love you

And I know you love me

Friends forever

Its a promise

I’m sorry

I never should have done that

I hope you’ll forgive me

It would fill me with glee

Christmas Time!

Presents presents galore

Wreaths and hollys at the door

The mistletoe hangs from the arch above

Waiting for you to kiss your love

Ornaments hang from the tree very tall

The Nativity Scene brightens up the hall

The Nutcracker starts singing a Christmas tune

As you dance to the light of the moon

The snow falls cold and icy

My mother’s perfume smells spicy

It’s Christmastime

So Merry Christmas to you and your kin!

What’s Going Through Your Mind?

Walking down the halls of my school

Swimming in the swimming pool

Hand in hand

What’s going through your mind?

Are you thinking about me or do you want to leave?

I want to know

I want you to go

And tell me what’s on your mind

Entangled, strangled, cuddled, huggled on the bed

My brain is half dead

Im so tired

But I still wanna know as i’m in your arms

What’s going through your mind?

Are you thinking about me or do you want to leave?

I want to know

I want you to go

And tell me what’s on your mind

Kissing and kissing, letting ourselves go

Kissing and kissing into our own world

What’s going through your mind?

Are you thinking about me or do you want to leave?

I want to know

I want you to go

And tell me what’s on your mind

Staying up all night talking on the phone

Laughing, joking, talking

You tell me you’re thinking about me

And I tell you I’m thinking about you

But I know what both of us are thinking

What’s going through your mind?

Are you thinking about me or do you want to leave?

I want to know

I want you to go

And tell me what’s on your mind

What If I Told You?

What if I told you the sun would stop shining?

What if I told you the world would stop spinning?

What if I told you the stars would stop shining?

What if I told you heaven exists?

What if I told you I love you?

I Dare You

I dare you to see me

I dare you to smile at me

I dare you to talk to me

I dare you to get to know me

I dare you to kiss me

I dare you to ask me out

Or you can chicken out

And walk right out that door

Will you take the dare?

Trick or Treat

Trick Or Treat

 It’s Halloween night, if you look outside it’s quite a sight.

 See everyone with their costumes and masks,

 While I’m stuck in the house doing chores and tasks.

 The doorbell rings,

 Dong dings,

 The trick or treaters at the door, oh look! Here comes more!

 I reach into the candy bowl,

 and serve first to a guy dressed up as a mean old soul

 So there are all the people with masks,

 While I’m stuck in here doing chores and tasks.

 I could be out trick or treating,

 And see all the funny people I will be meeting,

 But no,

 While everyone is admiring each other’s masks,

 I’m stuck here doing chores and tasks.

 My friends come to the door, ouch! My back is sore!

 They ask if I can come out and play,

 And some glare at me with their masks.

 No! I say, I have to stay here and do chores and tasks.

 Oh, that stinks! My friends say,

 I know, I say, I could be out there playing Hijinks.

 Yah! I’m finally done with my chores and tasks,

 Now I can go outside and be part of the masks!

 Oh wait! I have homework to do! And a science project too!

 Time’s running out, oh boy do I want to pout!

 But if I do pout, more time will run out.

 So I’ll sit here and do my stuff, even if my shoes scuff.

 What’s 12x8?

 Oh no, I forgot to write my name and date!

So what is this poem trying to tell you?

 Before you tie your Halloween shoe,

 Make sure you’re all finished with the house,

 Or you will get a big douse.

 Instead of celebrating with the masks,

 You’ll be stuck at home doing chores and tasks.

 HAVE A HAPPY

HALLOWEEN!

Love

there is no perfect way to define love

 Its like a white dove

 flying over hilltops

  and rooftops

  as it flies out of  a bride’s dress

 love is nothing less

 than bueaty

  love is warm and comforting better than any hug or kiss in the world

 love is something words cannot describe

 even this poem cannot describe love

 but it will give u the general idea

 love is  a forever hug

 u cant bottle love up in a jug

u gotta let it out

 love is too special to keep hangin

 love is beyond words

 love is wonderful

love is comforting

 love is….

 the most bueatiful thing in the world

You’ll always be in my heart

I think about you everyday

 i wish i may

 i wish i might

 i wish on a shining star tonight

 that somewhere out there ur thinking about me

 u’ll always be in my heart

 i feel so happy

 life feels so dandy

 every time u pop in my head

 as i lay in bed

 ull always be in my heart

 i never feel so alone anymore

 life is no longer a bore

 cause i have u in my heart forever

 this poem may not be clever

 and it may not be  perfect

 but its spiritual

but whatever u do just remember………..

  u’ll always be in my heart!!!!

Rainy Day

I stare out my window on a winter afternoon

I will be going outside soon

Because it is a rainy day!

Splish Splash Splish Splash

The rain falls from the sky

I love rainy days

They make me feel refreshed

Splish Splash Splish Splash

I run outside

I don’t worry about an umbrella or a hood

Even though i should

Watch me catch a raindrop on my tongue!

Splish Splahs Splish Splash

The rain falls forever

On a rainy day

Squeak Squeak Squeak

Listen to my shoes

Squeak Squeek SQUUUUEEEEEKKK!

I have such musical shoes

On a rainy day

The rain slishes and splashes

My shoes squeak squeak squeak

Forever on A Rainy Day!

Show The World

I’m taking a walk

Having a talk

With my friend or family member

When i see a root beer bottle

A Sprite Can

A Ziploc Bag

An empty Doritos Bag

And much more

And galore

All over the sidewalks and street

Under our feet

We need to stop littering

And Show the world what we can do

Show the world what we can be

Show the world a different side of me

And everyone else

Look at all the problems we are now facing

Economy, teacher cuts, unemployment, etc.

Don’t you wish you could do something about it?

Show the world what we can do

Show the world a different side of me

And everyone else

I’m at the beach

Chillin on a blanket

Watching the beautiful ocean waves

When i see another Dorito bag

A water bottle

A toy brand new

or two

Show the world what we can do

Show the world what we can be

Show the world a different side of me

And everyone else

I’m sure if we put our heads together

and work as one

we can

Show the world what we can do

Show the world what we can be

Show the world a different side of me

And everyone else

A Chair

Note: This is a total joke! So it’s supposed to be a badly done poem :P

It is red

It is hard

It can support butts

It has a personality

It is my best friend

The legs are cold

It is tough like steel

It has a backing

My wonderful body can support this wonderful chair in all its glory

A chair is useful

You can sit it in when you are too tired to walk

I love my chair

It is a chair

We’ve all been there. Or maybe we haven’t, but can imagine what it feels like. Or maybe we haven’t, and really have no clue what it feels like. Well, it’s something you have to experience to really understand. But lemme tell you one thing- it is as bad as everyone makes it sound. And you may feel like you’ll never be happy or love again. And you probably won’t- for a while. But not forever. You can use my strategy and stay up all night listening to sad music and crying, thinking about what you lost, but trust me from my own experiences, it dosen’t really help. It helps to get it all out, but the next day you’ll just be faced with exhaustion for lack of sleep and emotional exhaustion, which is never fun. The first step to getting yourself back on track is surrounding yourself with people you love and that you know love you, such as friends and family. Secondly, turn off the sad music and blast upbeat, happy music that makes you want to get up and dance. Even though you’re probably no way in the mood to dance, music can be a COMPLETE mood changer if you use it right. It can make you sad when you’re happy and happy when you’re sad. Also, get a lot of exercise. Take a long walk, go for a jog, or even do jumping jacks or pushups. Did you know that exercise releases endorphins, a pleasure chemical in the brain? Studies have shown that exercise releases a chemical in the brain that causes pleasure and happiness. That’s why dancing and other forms of exercise can make you happy even when you’re depressed deep down inside. it also helps to write all your feelings down or talk them out with a friend, family member, or even to your dog or to the wall. Just say what you’re feeling out loud, get it off your chest. You know you’re getting better when you find yourself getting bored with the subject and not wanting to talk about it anymore. And if you need to cry, don’t be afraid to. But by all means, keep busy as much as you can. Do whatever you can to get your mind off of it. It may also help to temporarily remove all memories you have, because while they’ll make you happy to remember later down the road, while the breakup is still fresh, the memories are just painful and will hurt you more. Later on down the road, when you feel better, you can look back on the memories and you’ll be happy you have them to look back on. But for now, forget them. You’re in the process of healing right now, and memories will just make it that much harder. Also, don’t expect it to be over it in a week, because you won’t, trust me. It’s different for everybody. There’s no right or wrong time to get over a breakup. Sometimes it can take weeks, months, or years. Some people heal quicker or slower than others, don’t worry about how long it takes you. Just remember eventually, YOU WILL GET OVER IT. IT WILL GET BETTER. It’s all about moving on. You can’t hold on to one person forever, or two, or three. If they hurt you, why would you want to hold on to them? You need to let go and tell yourself that you’ll find someone else that you’ll love just as much as you loved them. Hearts heal and then get broken again, sometimes several times over. That’s life, and it sucks. But one day, you will find “the one”. I believe there is somebody out there for everybody, you just haven’t found them yet. But when you do, it will be very special. It just means someone very very very special is waiting for you to fall into their arms, and they were there waiting the whole time. You may go through 2,4,6,8,10 people before you find “the one”. If it ended, it obviously wasn’t meant to be.

Carissa Demasi lmao I wanna hook someone up….but in the style of “The Dating Game”

Michelle Anderson me too

Michelle Anderson ill be your first thingie for you to hook up

carissa demasi “OK WE HAVE BACHELOR #3!!! #3 CMOOOOOOON DOWN! THIS IS MARCUS, WHO LOVES BMX BIKES, LONG WALKS ON THE BEACH, AND KISSING!”

Michelle Anderson what about number 2?

Michelle Anderson or 1?

carissa demasi BACHELOR #2! THIS IS TONY, WHO LOVES RAVES, DANCING, AND DRINKING JACK DANIELS!”

Michelle Anderson #1?

carissa demasi BACHELOR #1! THIS IS LEROY, WHO LOVES TACOS, MORNING JOGS, AND PHONE SEX!

Michelle Anderson interesting guys… lmao

carissa demasi BUT WAIT THERES MORR

Michelle Anderson keep em coming!!!

carissa demasi LEROY CAN SPEAK FLUENT MEXICAN, GERMAN, FRENCH, AND JAPANESE!

carissa demasi …spanish

carissa demasi lmao

Michelle Anderson lmao thats like an epic fail

carissa demasi lmao

Michelle Anderson Bachelor #1 is out.

carissa demasi why cuz he speaks mexican instead of spanish? LMAO

Michelle Anderson yeah lmao

carissa demasi Leroy: “But baby give me a chance! KONICHIWA!”

Michelle Anderson …sayonara

Michelle Anderson so now what?

carissa demasi well who do you choose? lmao

Michelle Anderson wait, lets start over. pick 5 guys

Michelle Anderson like come up with 5 guys and we’re gonna have rounds

carissa demasi ok

carissa demasi hold on

Michelle Anderson ok

carissa demasi DUN DUN AND WELCOME TO THE DATING GAME!

carissa demasi Meet our bachelorette Michelle Anderson!

carissa demasi We have 5 guys today waiting to win Michelle’s heart!

carissa demasi: WHOW ILL BE THE LUCKY ONE?

carissa demasi: Bachelor #1! His name is Sam, and he loves music, Dr. Pepper, and acting out scense from The Titanic

carissa demasi: Bachelor #2! His name is Robert and he loves Taco Bell, having sex on the beach, and surfing!

carissa demasi: Bachelor #3! His name is John, he loves waffles, Black Eyed Peas, and giving hickeys!

carissa demasi: Bachelor #4! His name is Michael, he loves sex, drugs, and rock n roll

carissa demasi: Bachelor #5! His name is Antonio, he can speak fluent Spanish, German, and Chinese and knows how to make a girl feel special!

carissa demasi: So looking at all these guys, which one do you want, Michelle Anderson?

Michelle Anderson hmmmm

Michelle Anderson I don’t want number 3 or 4

carissa demasi and why not?

Michelle Anderson i dont like hickeys

Michelle Anderson and i dont like sex drugs and rock and roll

carissa demasi ok

carissa demasi so you still have 3 more choices

Michelle Anderson which is why we go to ROUND 2!!!!

Michelle Anderson in this round, you have to ask three question and each guy answers. but you cant tell me who answered it. i have to pick the guy who answered bested

carissa demasi ok

carissa demasi wait how would I do this? lmao

Michelle Anderson instead of sam being bachelor #1, switch it up. make him a different number. and for an example, you would be like “bachelor #1’s answer is _____. bachelor #2’s answer is ___.”

Michelle Anderson and try not to make it obvious that i know who it is, like the surfer guy for an example. make him hve other hobbies too lol

carissa demasi lol ok i’ll try the best i can

Michelle Anderson ok lol

carissa demasi So we asked “if you only had $5 for a date what would you do with it?”

carissa demasi: Bachelor #1 answered “Picnic on the beach”

carissa demasi: Bachelor #2 answered “Movie date at my house”

carissa demasi: Bachelor #3 answered “Camping trip”

carissa demasi: Bachelor #4 answered “Hike”

Michelle Anderson theres only 3 lmao

carissa demasi SHIT I FUCKED UP THE GAME

Michelle Anderson no you didnt. you just said bachelor #4 and im like theres only 3

carissa demasi okay so screw Bachelor #4 he can go die in a ditch lmao

carissa demasi theres 1, 2, and 3

Michelle Anderson lmao

Michelle Anderson okay 2nd question

carissa demasi this is so going on Facebook lmao this is amazing

Michelle Anderson lmao

carissa demasi ok

carissa demasi next question

carissa demasi We asked “what would you do if you were on a date and at the last minute, Michelle realized she has no money and you have to pay?”

carissa demasi: Bachelor #1 answered “I’de say no problem and pay”

carissa demasi: Bachelor #2 said “I’de pay, but later make her pay me back”

carissa demasi: Bachelor #3 said “The date’s over”

carissa demasi: so?

Michelle Anderson one more question

carissa demasi We asked “If money is not an object, what is the best first date in your opinion?”

Michelle Anderson its all about money, isnt it?

Michelle Anderson lol jk

carissa demasi Bachelor #1 answered “Candelit dinner”

carissa demasi: Bachelor #2 answered “Movies”

carissa demasi: Bachelor #3 answered “Amusement park”

Michelle Anderson i pick #1 and #3

Michelle Anderson then we go to round 3 but idk what to do for this round. so its about to you

carissa demasi ok for this round we will ask them each to describe what they feel about you and you choose the one with the best answer

Michelle Anderson ok lol

carissa demasi its down to 2 now right?

Michelle Anderson yeah. make it juicy. lmao

carissa demasi Bachelor #1 says “Michelle, you are beautiful, gorgeous, and sexy, and I want you to be mine. Your eyes are blue like the artic and your smile makes me want to smile too. I love you.”

carissa demasi: Bachelor #2 says “Michelle, I want you on top of me so I can feel your bare chest on mine and I want to ru you until you get so orgasmed you cant breathe”

carissa demasi *rub

carissa demasi LMAO

carissa demasi: so which one?

Michelle Anderson lmao WO@W

Michelle Anderson wow*

carissa demasi well idk lmao

carissa demasi: i wanted both answers to be different

Michelle Anderson number two! number two! is it joseph??? its joseph right??? lmao jk i pick number 1

carissa demasi michelle has picked bachelor #1!

carissa demasi Lets see who she has picked!

carissa demasi YOU HAVE PICKED ROBERT!!!!

Michelle Anderson YEEEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

carissa demasi CONGRATULATIONS!

Michelle Anderson WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

carissa demasi WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

carissa demasi: that was great lmao

Remember When? (About growing up)

Remember when boys had cooties?

Remember when your parents arranged your playdates?

Remember when the biggest fight you ever had with your best friend was over who gets the last Popsicle?

Remember when “we should hang out” was “wanna come over and play?” and you actually followed through?

Remember when you gave your childhood best friend a friendship ring and promised to be “best friends forever?”

Remember those countless Friday nights when you would go out with your friends and party all night long? They were your “crew”, your “buddies”, and you hoped you would all be best friends forever.

Remember when your best friends only lived a block away?

Remember when goodbyes only lasted 12 hours?

Remember when “getting punished” meant going to your room or going to bed early?

Remember when you relied on a security blanket to keep you warm and secure?

Remember when “stupid” was such a bad word?

Remember when the worst pain you ever felt was a skinned knee?

Remember when peer pressure was to go down the huge slide on the playground or the diving board at the pool ?

Remember when getting high was swinging on the swings at the park?

Remember puppy love, when you thought you were “in love” with your first crush?

Remember when heartbreak was spilling your milk?

Now boys are everything and more to us

Now we are in charge of our own social life

Now the biggest fight you’ll ever have with your best friend was over the fact that she slept with your boyfriend

Now “we should hang out” usually isn’t followed through

Now that friendship ring can be be easily regarded and thrown away as “junk” when cleaning out their room and that “best friend” you gave it to you was easily replaced

Your “crew” is no longer your crew. They become your old childhood friends. You have a new “crew”, but your old “crew”always holds a special place in your heart and you would give anything to spend one night with them reliving the great times you  used to have

Your old childhood best friends are growing up and moving away, renting apartments with their boyfriends/girlfriends, sometimes thousands of miles away

Now goodbyes last years

Now “getting punished” means “getting grounded” for weeks at a time, usually bound to your room with no computer, phone, friends, or anything

Now we rely on our boyfriends to keep us warm and secure

Now nothing is considered a bad word to us because we hear deragatory, prejudice words just walking down the school hallway and in the music we listen to

A skinned knee is NOTHING compared to a real broken heart

Now peer pressure is the notion that getting drunk and high is cool

Now getting high means smoking and popping pills

Now “real love” is slow suicide

Now “heartbreak” is getting cheated on or dumped by someone you thought you could always trust

Sometimes I wonder why I was ever so excited to grow up

I would go back to the good ol’ days in a heartbeat

Everyone loves music. Music makes this world a place worth living in. Without music, this world would be bland and boring. But if you know me, you know I’m more addicted to music than the average person. My iPod is in my ears 24/7 like an oxygen tank. I actually have trouble parting with it. So why is music such an addiction in my life? Because to me, it’s more than just lovely sound. It’s my medicine and my escape from life. When I put my headphones on, every worry, stress, or sadness I have goes away and I lose myself in the music. It’s a total soul changer. When I’m sad or mad, it perks me right up. Music is also sometimes the way I express myself. I sometimes feel as if music defines me.

Has anyone ever told you they were “straight edge?” Maybe you’ve heard the term being tossed around or said before. What is straight edge all about, what does it mean, and how do you become straight edge?

Being straight edge means you refrain from smoking, drugs, drinking, and premarital sex. Some people call it “boring”, “goody goody”, “a loser” or just plain “dumb”, when in reality, its not. Its a personal choice. I, myself, happen to be straight edge because I CHOOSE TO BE. I believe that you can have fun without drinking, doing drugs, or having sex. People who are n’t straight edge (people who do drugs, smoke, and drink) are also following through on a personal choice. Unfairly, non straight edge people consider straight edge people “boring losers”. You CHOSE to be non straight edge right? That was a personal choice. Well, I’m choosing to be straight edge which is a personal choice as well. If you don’t judge me for my personal choices, I won’t judge you for yours. We all have the right to live our life the way we want. If you want to live YOUR life non straight edge, go ahead. I’m not stopping you or judging you, its your choice. But dont judge me for wanting to live MY life straight edge. I’m not here to judge anyone, i’m here to let people know that just because I dont smoke, do drugs, drink, or have sex, dosent mean I’m a boring loser. I’m actually VERY fun to be around, and I can do that being straight edge. It just seems nowadays in society, not being straight edge is “cool” and “awesome”. So if a straight edge person like me decides not to do drugs or smoke or drink or have sex, they’re considered “uncool”, when really, all they’re doing is following through on a personal choice, like the people who aren’t straight edge. We all deserve to live our lives the way we want, whether other people disagree with it or not. It’s our life. So just food for thought: don’t judge me and I won’t judge you :)

I was walking home from school one day and it started raining. While my two friends had umbrellas, I got pretty darn wet. My hair was almost soaked, along with my shirt and the bottom of my pants. At the same time, I was listening to my ipod (which also got pretty wet) and Teenage Dream by Katy Perry was playing. So in my wet misery, I replaced the lyrics of the song with my own lyrics about the rain and sang it nice and loud. ENJOY!

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Wet Wet Rain (in the style of Teenage Dream by Katy Perry)

By: Carissa Demasi

Let’s go all the way tonight

No regrets, just rain

We can’t dance, because it’s too wet

You and I will be wet forever

You make me feel

Like I’m so so sick

The way you make me feel

I can’t sleep

Because I’m too sick

Don’t ever look back,

Don’t ever look back

My heart stops

When the rain falls on me

Just one drop

Now baby I believe

I’m too wet

So stop raining and

Don’t ever look back

Don’t ever look back

Let’s go all the way tonight

No regrets, just rain

We can’t dance, because it’s too wet

You and I will be wet forever

You make me feel

Like I’m so so sick

The way you make me feel

I can’t sleep

Because I’m too sick

Don’t ever look back,

Don’t ever look back

 I’mma get your heart racing

When I fall on you

Get you soaking up all night

Let you put your water on me

You fat wet rain

Please stop raining tonight

[Chorus]

Yoooouuu

You make me feel

 Like I’m so so sick

 The way you make me feel

I can’t sleep

 Because I’m too sick

Don’t ever look back,

Don’t ever look back

My heart stops

When the rain falls on me

Just one drop

Now baby I believe

I’m too sick

So stop raining and

Don’t ever look back

Don’t ever look back

I’mma get your heart racing

When I fall on you

Get you soaking up all night

Let you put your liquid on me

You fat wet rain

Please stop raining tonight

 (Tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight, tonight)

Invite List

Who’s going?

1. Katie

2. Savannah

3. Justin

4. Bryce

5. Sarina

6. Desire

7. Michelle

8. Me

The Ride There

Who is riding in the car?

Sarina, Bryce, Justin, Desire, Michelle

Who is riding  in the trailer (RV)?

Me, Katie, Savannah,

Destination

Who would be the first one to complain that there aren’t enough outlets for their hair straightener ipod, cell phone, or any other must needed devices?

Sarina

Who complains that there’s no WiFi?

Me and Savannah

Who complains that there’s no service for their phone?

Sarina and Savannah

Who refuses to help set up the tent?

Me

Who would rather listen to their ipod than enjoy the scenery?

Me

Sleeping Arrangements

Who is sleeping in the tent?

Me, Savannah, Katie, Michelle,

Who is sleeping in the RV?

Bryce and Sarina

Who is sleeping outside?

Justin and Desire

Hike Time!

Who is leading the hike?

Desire

Who finds out, 15 minutes into the hike, that we left the food and water bottles back at the campsite?

Me

Who volunteers to go back and get them?

Michelle

Who complains about being tired and their feet hurting?

Sarina and Katie

Who is taking pictures of every little thing?

Michelle

Who is pissed that they forgot their camera?

Me

Who sneaks away from, the group and ends up getting lost?

Me and Savannah

You run into a hungry mountain lion. Who runs away screaming?

Me

Who shoots at it with a  tranquilizer gun?

Desire

Who remains completely and totally calm?

Justin

The Ride Back Home

Who is singing songs at the top of their lungs?

Me, Savannah, and Katie

Who falls asleep?

Bryce and Justin

Who wants to play a car game?

Katie

December 18, 2010: Today I went into a public restroom and saw a walnut on the toilet paper dispenser

December 25, 2010: Today I was dancing in the computer room and my dad walks in on me and sees half of my dance. I see him standing in the doorway looking at me like I’m crazy. I smile at him widely (:D) and wave at him, knowing I was caught mid-embarrasing dance. He then goes “You freaked me AND the dog out, whatever whispering you’re doing, stop.” to which I said “What are you talking about? I wasn’t whispering…..” I started laughing once he left due to the embarrassment of being walked in on mid-dance- and the fact that he thought I was whispering when I wasn’t. He must have been hearing things.

December 26 , 2010: Today as we were driving home from going out to dinner, we saw the restaurant “Red Lobster” and the “Ter” was lighted out. So my dad goes “Oh look Red Lobs”. Then on the other side of the restaurant, the “bster” was lighted out so my dad goes “OH OH WAIT! RED LOB!” Haha Dad! ily! :D

December 27, 2010: Yet again my dad walks in on me when im dancing around the living room as if I’m a famous dancer onstage in front of a huge crowd complete with gesturing to the imaginary crowd with a big finish, since I apparently forgot he was home and thought I was home alone.

December 27 2010: Today I was walking to the park with my best friend and I was listening to my ipod. A song that I really liked came on and I started dancing crazily and singing. A car passed by and I looked in the window- it was my old babysitter staring at me like I was a freak.

January 5th, 2011: Today I remembered last year the freshman had to do the Hoedown Throwdown by Hannah Montana for their PE dance unit- even the guys! I wish I was there to see that!

January 20th, 2011: Two things happened today.

1. First, I was at lunch and my best friend decided to try and scare me. I was in front of the library where she hangs out talking to somebody I know from her group and she snuck up behind me, grabbed hold of my shoulders, and screamed “OH MY GOD!” and I screamed HELLA loud. So this group of 3 girls who were passing by me to walk into the library as I screamed started CRACKING UP.

2. Today I was in journalism and the teacher was going around, stamping our DWL (Daily Written Language) warmup thing. I looked all around the room for the teacher and couldn’t find her so I was like “Omg did she really just pass right over me?”. Then she goes “Im right here what?” Apparently, she had been behind me the whole time

February 6th 2011: Today I was remembering that when I was 10 years old and I found out that “ABC” and “Twinkle Twinkle Little Star” were the same tune, my mind was BLOWN. I remembered exactly how it happened too. I was in the car with my dad and just randomly out of the blue I was like “DADDY!!! THE ABC SONG AND TWINKLE TWINKLE LITTLE STAR HAVE THE SAME TUNE!”………..and Ba Ba Black Sheep apparently.

February 7th 2011: Last night I had a dream that I was getting insulted by my entire class. And someone yelled “YOU’RE A MONKEY SWINGING FROM A TREE!” as an insult and in the dream I screamed back in his face “I’M NOT A MONKEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!”….yea.

February 11th 2011: This morning My dad came in my room at 6:30 A.M. yelling at me to wake up so I’m not late for school and I’m all “uuuuuhhh I don’t wanna get up” normal school morning routine. Then at 6:45 I remembered…there’s no school today. So now I’m up at 7 A.M. when I should be sleeping. SUCKY moment #1 :/

February 15th 2011: Today in my 6th period class, my teacher turned on Spongebob’s F.U.N. song, Campfire song, and Theme Song and the ENTIRE class, including me, sang along. It was seriously a 25 student chorus throughout every song, our voices all blending as one. Then the teacher sang Plankton’s part. And we’re all juniors and seniors. I love my 6th period class :)

February 17th 2011: Today three things happened.

1. I was in front of the library at lunch with my best friend who was trying to stick a straw in her Capri Sun and it wouldn’t go in. She was getting frustrated so she screamed “IT WON’T GO IN!” to which her guy friend turned around and said “That’s what he said” which in turn made me yell “MY FINGER GOT STUCK!”

2. Towards the last 10 minutes of lunch, me and my best friend went into the library to join a few of our other friends. And I asked one of my guy friends if he wanted a Cheezit. He had a sour taste in his mouth, so he asked “It’s not sour is it?” and I said loudly “IT’S SALTY!” My best friend turned around right as I said that, gave me a look that plainly said “WTF?” and literally fell over, laughing so hard, her face turned red and she couldn’t breathe, which in turn caused me to start laughing and nearly fall over on top of her while I was holding onto her back asking her if she was okay. Then as we were walking out of the library, my friend I gave the Cheezit too said “Now it’s sour” which made my best friend laugh all over again and in turn I screamed “THATS WHAT SHE SAID!”

3. While walking home in the rain, I turned to my BFF and said “salty” which made her laugh and she said “I was laughing all 5th period because of that!” which in turn made us throw out “That’s what she said” halfway home.

Her: It won’t go in!

Me: That’s what he said!

Me: MY FINGER GOT STUCK!!

Her: OOOOOOOOH that’s totally what she said!

Me: He’s very anal, if you know what I mean

March 1 2011: I got scared to death walking home after school today. I was walking past this cluster of bushes. I heard loud rustling and then something SHOT OUT & just started running. So I hella screamed. I looked to see what it was, and it was a cat. And everyone was laughing at me. Fail.

March 3 2011: Two things happened today.

Today was “Imitate A Teacher Day” where you dress up like your favorite teacher. During lunch, an ENTIRE parade of about 30 students marched through campus, all dressed exactly alike, in a white blouse, black tux pants, and a nametag that said “Hello my name is Mr. Gore” (even the girls!),  the new English teacher at our school, chanting his name and receiving applause and amused looks from everybody else. I love my school sometimes :)

In my sixth period, my teacher claimed it was a “special day” something to do with Dr. Seuss. He invited us all to gather in a circle for story time while he read us “There’s a wocket in my pocket!” by Dr. Seuss. Only 6 students, including me, actually joined the circle, but we all sat  crosslegged in the middle of the classroom in a circle while he sat in a chair and read the entire book to us for 15 minutes, and showed us the pictures. My friend, who was sitting next to me, was cracking me up with the look on her face. The whole time he was reading, her eyes were wide and she had a huge smile on her face, imitating an excited 10 year old. And she was asking him to do stuff like sit in a chair and show us the picture in a baby voice. It was like kindergarten all over again! I love my 6th period :) Now if only there was nap time…

March 19th 2011: Saturday morning. I had just got out of bed and I was wearing sweats that was like, 5 sizes too big for me. I was walking down the hall carrying food and my cute adorable dog was following close behind me. She took one wrong move forward and stepped on the bottom of my jeans, pantsing me in the middle of my hallway.

April 12th 2011: Today, in 6th period, my teacher screamed “HEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!” at the top of his lungs to get us to shut up and just as he did that, a cop came in like “I heard you scream is everything alright in here?” and we all started cracking up at my teacher’s loudness.

April 13th 2011: Today as I was walking to class this tall guy that was walking behind me quickened his pace and ended up next to me. His friend was on the other side of me and he reached over my head while his friend on the other side of me reached over my head at the same time and they gave each other a high five right over my head as I walked underneath their high five like a bridge as if nothing was going on. It was epic!

July 15th 2011: Today, I was taking a walk down my street and I saw a van parked in front of a house. I looked inside out of curiosity. Inside was an Asian boy of about 8 years old. He looks directly at me, crosses his eyes, and sticks his tongue out. I wonder if his mother ever told him the lie that “his face will get stuck like that” like we were all told at 8 years old. LOL thanks for making my day, little boy